Don’t Lose Hope

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Don’t Lose Hope features bad language, erotic scenes, discussion of childhood traumas, and other material which might be considered offensive and/or upsetting. Please also note that sexual assault (and the survival of) is a heavily touched on subject in the books, with several of the characters being recovering victims of things such as CSA. I’ve done my best to handle these topics with respect and sensitivity but several scenes may be triggering to certain readers. Please take care of yourself if you intend to read the series!

Don’t Lose Hope has been a long-running project, and the main reason for me creating the Demrefor world! I’ve been writing it for years, and in 2014 I threw out everything (partially because of a harddrive crash, which lost a large chunk of my work and made me say “OKAY! I’ll retcon, then!”) and started from scratch. Now, there are 30 planned books for the series, most of which have their first drafts completed! :D There are one or two straggling books, which are still sitting at their plot points, but that’s okay because they’re side books and I’ll get to them ;)

In this series there are 2 planned book types and reading orders! The book types are “main books” and “side books”, with 15 of each! The main series books are written to flow into one-another neatly and are all necessary parts of the series. The side books for the series focus more on character backstories that aren’t truely needed for the main main plot, and are there to bring unique perspectives to certain situations (such as the dark book 10.5- A Dassen in the Heck’ne)

The first reading order is “main series” order, where you read the books as 1, 2, 3, etc. and just read through. And then there is “chronological” order, where you read the series as book 1, then 1.5, and so on so forth! The different orders of the books reveals information at different times in different ways, and can change your perspective of some characters! (Main series readers; don’t fall for Kay’oten’s tricks! 😟 Some people aren’t quite what they seem when you look behind the scenes!)

Official character references/designs and other art can be found on toyhou.se!

#1 Ka’harja’s Journey

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‘Guess what?’ asked Ka’harja as he poked his mother’s nose again. He continued when she met his eye with a tired grin. ‘You’re great.’

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#1.5 The Runaways

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‘I have a son now,’ she replied. ‘And I’m taking him to Fallen Cloud City so he can grow up happier than I did. And my yalfit died. And my kekik’s gone to live somewhere else. It’d be nice to talk about that.’

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#2 The Self-Feeders

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‘Stars?’ his voice was barely a whisper. He let go of her shoulder, blood trailing from his pointed fangs as he slowly pulled away. ‘Stars, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry!’

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#2.5 Stargazing

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‘If you can find the stars, you can find your way home,’ Timamisa told him. ‘You’re not lost as long as you have the sky.’

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#3 Prince Nigelle

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Ka’harja watched as Raidus took Fabecutt’s hand. He shook it perhaps a little too hard— And his grin was just a little too fake. But the girls didn’t seem to notice.

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#3.5 Harmony

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‘This way! This way!’ Harmony cried, motioning to the opening behind the shelf. ‘Before the others come! Hurry!’

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#4 Queen Kekik

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‘You are my family!’ Stars retorted. ‘So if I’m with you, I am with family, where I belong!’

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#4.5 The Harpy Bride

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‘Evil,’ this time the word was a hiss. ‘I know evil. I know it. And it is him. Deep inside him. Evil. Evil like sabres— And evil like spiders…. Evil like Ref’elute.’

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#5 The Canis Guard

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‘Nobody can hurt you anymore,’ Toro promised. ‘I’m here. I won’t let them touch you.’

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#5.5 Untitled

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‘By the three moons, are you okay?!’ Coski yelled, bursting through the underbrush. His arrow had stuck in the tree, right by the ear of an avio, who fell to the ground and stared with wide, frightened eyes. ‘I am so so so sorry!’

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#6 A Necklace and a Lullaby

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‘I’m just paying forward,’ Hayt responded. ‘It’s a bit of a thing I have going on. Do something nice for someone so maybe they’ll do something nice for someone else. You know.’

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#6.5 The Thief and the Witch

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[I don’t like any of the quotes enough to put them here sorry… This one is ROUGH.]

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#7 Untitled

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‘If you run, I’ll kill you,’ Kay’oten warned. ‘I will come after you, and not even your mother will be able to stop me.’

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# 7.5 Homeland, Not Home

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Dark. Quiet. Memory. Fear. Blood. Awaken.’

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#8 Untitled

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‘What is it?’ she asked. ‘I’m a little busy trying to figure out next week’s schedule. It’s a team building exercise. Make sure you don’t stab your partner in the back when we do this one.’

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# 8.5 Fugitive

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‘No! Your name is Spruce now,’ his father told him, squeezing his arms tight and tugging him forward. ‘Spruce. Warner. Listen to me! Please! I’m sorry! I’m sorry. But you can’t be Elliot anymore. I’m sorry.’

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#9 Lost and Found

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‘You didn’t,’ Coski held his uncle’s hand. ‘You were hurting, too. We knew that. And we trusted you’d come home when you were ready.’

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#9.5 Keeyata

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‘I promise I’m not trying to be bad, ma,’ Keeyata mumbled, looking away. ‘But I don’t understand.’

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#10 Untitled

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‘Mercy?’ Mairas hissed. ‘Mercy? Did you ever show mercy?’

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#10.5 A Dassen in the Heck’ne

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‘You’re a Har’py at heart,’ Gala’sha grinned, his fangs reflecting a sparkle of sunlight. ‘The right kind.’

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#11 Political Engagement

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‘That’s the face,’ Ykelt sighed, and motioned for Sensin to look. ‘Get familiar with this one. It means she’s thinking something mean— Not that I don’t deserve it.’

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#11.5 Untitled

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‘I— I don’t want to be king!’ Jared could feel his chest heave as he faced the queen, and knew he the tears were finally coming. ‘I can’t take it! I can’t take it anymore! It’s too much! Just give the kingdom to someone else! Anyone else! Anyone but me! Please!’

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#12 Little Kiita

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‘Being alone is scary. And being in a new place is terrifying. Being alone in a new place…’ she kissed the top of his head. ‘I can’t even imagine. You can sleep with me as long as you need to, okay?’

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#12.5 Glow-Glow

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The valenor paused, and turned their head to the side to look at Linyata. ‘Who are you? You’re scarcely as big as a youngling. Are those dassen horns I see growing on you?’

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#13 Bad Times

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‘Well maybe if you behaved better he wouldn’t have a reason to!’ Liamara snapped. ‘I behave well! I’ve always behaved well! He! Loves! Me!’

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#13.5 Untitled

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‘Gorg,’ she said as she gently knelt by her brother. She ran a hand over his back and ran the other down his arm to meet his own at their father’s wound. ‘Kosson. Tasa less now. You’re hurting yalfit.’

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#14 Centela’s Promise

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‘I’m gonna bite off your ears!’ Keeyata hissed, nipping Centela’s ears before letting him go. ‘Then you won’t be able to eavesdrop anymore. How’d you like that?’

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#14.5 Young Love, Fun Love

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‘I was walking, and my feet brought me to you,’ Geoff kissed her nose. ‘I have missed you. Every part of me.’

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#15 It Will End (One Way or Another)

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Keeyata’s ears twitched and she turned to Gusilina, a smile breaking over her face as she chuckled. ‘Your yalfit not warm enough for you, little Goose?’

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#15.5 Life Goes On

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‘Hi! I’m Harnlix and this is my cousin, Gusilina!’ Harnlix exclaimed. ‘Though, most people call her Goose— We’re the Happiest Settlement!’

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